Thursday, January 24, 2013

He sure does love me

Hello. I decided since my life has changed so much in the last 6 months I would delete all of my content from the past and start over fresh. 

Speaking of starting over fresh...I want to talk about how Jesus made me fresh and new. 

Anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
 2 Corinthians 5:17

When I was 16 years old and a Junior in High School I came to a point of realization that something in my life was missing.  I had struggled with a lot of things, had no motivation to do anything productive with my life, searched for acceptance and love in all the wrong areas, my stories of partying and "adventures" became my new obsession, and I did not truly know how to love or be loved. After years of what the Bible would call carousing, I simply knew that this was not what I wanted for the rest of my life, there had to be something more satisfying. But I did not know yet what that was so I continued falling deeper and deeper into a life of destruction. 

About the time I started realizing that I wanted more, God radically transformed the life of my good friend. To make a long story short, my friend (who I had only ever known as a crazy person) had been completely wrecked by God and had given up everything about his old life to serve the Lord. I specifically remember a certain lunch date where he shared with me his story, and told me about Jesus. Seeing someone completely change vs. hearing someones testimony of change is a whole different thing. I saw a Joy in him that I didn't quite understand, but I knew I wanted whatever it was.

Yes, I had heard about Jesus. I believed God was real but the dots in between were never connected & I certainly wasn't living my life for Him. 
That Christmas break I prayed a prayer that Jesus would come pick me up from the place I was at, and I decided to give my life, my whole life to Him. 
In that moment, when I realized I was a Daughter of the King of Kings, I was made new. I lost all desires to do anything I had done before,those things were behind me. I am shocked that it all fell off of me so easily, but my heart wasn't in that anymore, my heart was in Him. 

Life didn't become perfect after I was saved, actually some things got harder. But it wasn't about the trials I had to go through it was about knowing Jesus had already won the war, and was getting me through everything. 

God does indeed have an incredible plan for my life and I love watching it unfold. I no longer have to search for love and acceptance because my savior loves me more than I understand and accepts me even when I fail. Partying and adventures are still a big part of my life, but I get to party with Jesus so it's way better (this is not your average party lol). I am truly loved by the Creator of love and can't even love without Him. He has completely wrecked me and transformed my heart this year. I've experienced his faithful and unfailing love everyday. 

1 comment:

Brittany said...

That is such a great testimony. And that is so true and something I have never thought about, but seeing someone go through that change is sooo powerful