Sunday, January 27, 2013

media fast

My school has been doing a campus wide fast preparing for an upcoming conference that is going to completely change the atmosphere on campus.

This week we're doing a media fast so I will be disconnected from the world for a little while.
I am beyond excited for what God is going to do! I can already feel change coming. 

Please be praying with SEU as we prepare for what is to come! 


The sick need a doctor

I love the word of God. It is alive and teaches me everyday. 
I went through a period where I had no hunger for the Word, I still loved the Lord but didn't see the importance or value in digesting it continuously. After a long period of prayer I have developed a hunger for God's word like no other and through discipline and obedience He is teaching me how to read His word.

Matthew 9:9-12:
  As Jesus was walking along, he saw a man named Matthew sitting at his tax collector’s booth.“Follow me and be my disciple,” Jesus said to him. So Matthew got up and followed him. Later, Matthew invited Jesus and his disciples to his home as dinner guests, along with many tax collectors and other disreputable sinners.  But when the Pharisees saw this, they asked his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with such scum?”  When Jesus heard this, he said, “Healthy people don’t need a doctor—sick people do.”  Then he added, “Now go and learn the meaning of this Scripture: ‘I want you to show mercy, not offer sacrifices.’ For I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners.”

For some strange reason it's easy to lose sight of what Jesus says. In fact we sometimes do the opposite of what Jesus commanded us to do. I have been to churches where instead of being welcomed with open arms a sinner is made to feel unwanted and unworthy of being in the presence of the "perfect saints" who make up the church. Everything Jesus says in this passage is completely contradictory to the religious spirit. We are supposed to be on the hunt for disreputable sinners so we can introduce them to our Savior and they too may be saved. This is such a humbling scripture, reminding me that Jesus has come to call those who know they are sinners, instead of those who only think they are righteous. Pride and a religious spirit are straight from the enemy and trying to get to us in any way. 

Jesus, Help me to become the lowest of the lows, a servant just as you are. Teach me to humble myself and think of no one as better than myself. Give me strength to overcome whatever the enemy throws my way. Lead me to the people that need your love the most, and help me to remember my purpose.


Thursday, January 24, 2013

Ultimate Healer

HOLY SPIRIT...........

Tonight was insane. First of all, I have the greatest church ever. Thursday nights are my favorite. 
But tonight was not just any Thursday night at my church. I came very expectant, not just because God always moves (which He does) but because I knew something special was going to happen tonight.
We had a healing prophet come and boy did our God heal! 

A woman with hip injuries, a girl with knee injuries, a woman who couldn't breathe without a tube, a guy who couldn't walk without crutches, the fear of cancer, premature death, a babies ear issues, anxiety....HEALING took place. What a beautiful demonstration of God's love and power. Glory to GOD!!! 

Jesus is the perfect healer and He lives inside of us. Something that always blows my mind is that I too have the power to heal. Why? Because the power of Christ is inside of me as well.
My prayers are the same as any man's would be. But not until recently did I have the faith to step up and pray for healing in an expectant way. 
"But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you." Romans 8:11

"Therefore I say to you whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them."  Mark 11:24

Hmmm....Why did it take so long? Why do people intimidate us? 

God continues to draw me out of my comfort zone, and in that scary leap of faith I always end up deeper in His presence. I want more. All day, every day I want more. But to get more means I have to continue  being obedient, even when it may seem scary, uncomfortable, or weird. 

He sure does love me

Hello. I decided since my life has changed so much in the last 6 months I would delete all of my content from the past and start over fresh. 

Speaking of starting over fresh...I want to talk about how Jesus made me fresh and new. 

Anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
 2 Corinthians 5:17

When I was 16 years old and a Junior in High School I came to a point of realization that something in my life was missing.  I had struggled with a lot of things, had no motivation to do anything productive with my life, searched for acceptance and love in all the wrong areas, my stories of partying and "adventures" became my new obsession, and I did not truly know how to love or be loved. After years of what the Bible would call carousing, I simply knew that this was not what I wanted for the rest of my life, there had to be something more satisfying. But I did not know yet what that was so I continued falling deeper and deeper into a life of destruction. 

About the time I started realizing that I wanted more, God radically transformed the life of my good friend. To make a long story short, my friend (who I had only ever known as a crazy person) had been completely wrecked by God and had given up everything about his old life to serve the Lord. I specifically remember a certain lunch date where he shared with me his story, and told me about Jesus. Seeing someone completely change vs. hearing someones testimony of change is a whole different thing. I saw a Joy in him that I didn't quite understand, but I knew I wanted whatever it was.

Yes, I had heard about Jesus. I believed God was real but the dots in between were never connected & I certainly wasn't living my life for Him. 
That Christmas break I prayed a prayer that Jesus would come pick me up from the place I was at, and I decided to give my life, my whole life to Him. 
In that moment, when I realized I was a Daughter of the King of Kings, I was made new. I lost all desires to do anything I had done before,those things were behind me. I am shocked that it all fell off of me so easily, but my heart wasn't in that anymore, my heart was in Him. 

Life didn't become perfect after I was saved, actually some things got harder. But it wasn't about the trials I had to go through it was about knowing Jesus had already won the war, and was getting me through everything. 

God does indeed have an incredible plan for my life and I love watching it unfold. I no longer have to search for love and acceptance because my savior loves me more than I understand and accepts me even when I fail. Partying and adventures are still a big part of my life, but I get to party with Jesus so it's way better (this is not your average party lol). I am truly loved by the Creator of love and can't even love without Him. He has completely wrecked me and transformed my heart this year. I've experienced his faithful and unfailing love everyday.